So I find out a relitive died. Wanna know how, fucking facebook. Are you fucking kidding me. I am that much of a fucking black sheep that it didn't dawn on anybody to pick up a phone. Ya remember those, when they were used for TALKING. I know its an old concept actually pick it up, dial the 10 didgets and push TALK, or send. Ya know how you would type it...well this is talking with your FUCKING MOUTH. Not your thumbs.
If ever I wanted to be pissed its now. Do you know in the last ten years I have not been invited to a single family function? I have no idea why. I have never been to jail, never stolen anything, never talked ill of anyone in our family, except when my grandmas being a spaz and usually someone else brings it up. I always send Christmas Cards and if I remember I send a birthday card. The only person to remember my birthday is my Grandmother. Mom? Nope, Dad? Nope....facebook told them it was my birthday.
Three years ago I get pregnant with my second child, and my last, I sent Updates, as if anyone fucking cared, but I did. Copied my ultra sounds and sent them, with "ITS A BOY" crap. Nothing not even a congrats or wow. Nothing. He was born and the only person to come see me, my Aunt. Even my Grandma said you can't have the baby because its my birthday party. Oh, and your Aunt can't go until after that. Sorry, I don't care that you had to have a C-section and could really use the help.
Or maybe just a simple, ya know I miss you, how about you come over for Thanksgiving....NOPE. What am I supposed to do, Ask my entire family to come to my 2 bedroom apt, where they wouldn't even come to, because why? I am a person they share blood with, thats it. My growth done, now there responsibility is over done with no need to show love or affection. It fucking sucks. And it sucks for my kids. My dease is such that I won't be around always, and yet they have no family. More elaboration to come in many other chapters.... It just really sucks to know that you don't have a place.
If ever I wanted to be pissed its now. Do you know in the last ten years I have not been invited to a single family function? I have no idea why. I have never been to jail, never stolen anything, never talked ill of anyone in our family, except when my grandmas being a spaz and usually someone else brings it up. I always send Christmas Cards and if I remember I send a birthday card. The only person to remember my birthday is my Grandmother. Mom? Nope, Dad? Nope....facebook told them it was my birthday.
Three years ago I get pregnant with my second child, and my last, I sent Updates, as if anyone fucking cared, but I did. Copied my ultra sounds and sent them, with "ITS A BOY" crap. Nothing not even a congrats or wow. Nothing. He was born and the only person to come see me, my Aunt. Even my Grandma said you can't have the baby because its my birthday party. Oh, and your Aunt can't go until after that. Sorry, I don't care that you had to have a C-section and could really use the help.
Or maybe just a simple, ya know I miss you, how about you come over for Thanksgiving....NOPE. What am I supposed to do, Ask my entire family to come to my 2 bedroom apt, where they wouldn't even come to, because why? I am a person they share blood with, thats it. My growth done, now there responsibility is over done with no need to show love or affection. It fucking sucks. And it sucks for my kids. My dease is such that I won't be around always, and yet they have no family. More elaboration to come in many other chapters.... It just really sucks to know that you don't have a place.
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